This morning as I applied my makeup in preparation for an outing with some girl friends, something unusual happened. As I looked into the mirror, I noticed my skin. It looked clear, healthy and beautiful. It was actually glowing – really glowing! I was so startled by this observation that I confess, it was hard to stop looking at myself and admiring the radiance emanating from my face. I’ve actually never been plagued with bad skin, but I’ve never considered it to be exceptional either. You see, all too often I have noticed my flaws rather than my attributes. This has been an ongoing battle in many areas reaching far beyond physical appearance. At times, it has even been crippling.
Through various experiences, I have been learning that when fears and insecurities arise, if I’m able to “push past it” and just “let go” then God is able to do amazing things through me. “Pushing past it” really means getting over myself. It means recognizing that often times I have placed expectations upon myself that He never intended. It means acknowledging my own pride and admitting that sometimes I care way too much about what others think. “Letting go” means surrendering everything to the One who bought and paid for me with His precious blood. It means trusting Him in every area of my life. It means being willing to step out in obedience and try new things even if it makes me look foolish. It means being willing to publicly fail.
I’ve also been learning, more and more, to see myself through the filter of God’s love. When He looks at me, He’s not focused on my flaws, so I shouldn’t be either. God is so in love with me that He can’t take His eyes off of me – not even for a nanosecond! Sometimes, this seems unbelievable to me, but I know that it’s true. He knows me completely – inside and out – the good and the bad – the beautiful and the ugly – past, present and future. He knows who I once was, and He knows who I am right now. Even better than that, He knows who I am becoming because He designed my very destiny. The more I am able to get over myself and surrender to Him, the more He is able to change what needs to change in me… and I begin to look more like Him.
2 Corinthians 3:18, “And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.”